It’s been less than two months since I last blogged, I must be getting back into the swing of things eh?
Brief summary of the last two months of my life – poor attendance at my one day a week class, great attendance at church, painting rooms, reading books and probably passing my course (provisional mark is a pass, but that has to be confirmed by a physical submission). How exciting!
It’s (most likely) been a long time since God asked Jacob to do something major – I wonder how much God and Jacob spoke since their wrestling match. The story is coming up to the grand reuniting! Jacob planning to go and visit is much loved, and much longed for son, Joseph, Egypt’s boy wonder. He must have been nervous, because before he actually leave the land of Canaan God has to prompt him. Something similar happens to modern day followers of God. (more…)
It has been a long time since I have blogged.
I think that must be my most frequent opening, since it is almost always a long time since I have last blogged.
Quite a lot has happened since my last blog. Last you all heard via wordpress is I was employed part time, studying part time and I suppose I was living part time, even though I didn’t express it, as I wasn’t aware of it.
I applied for the position of youth worker in a local church. I was really excited about the whole process really. The application went relatively smoothly, the interview went well, and I was invited to do a short teaching at the youth club as a follow up. That also went well! However, after missing several phone calls I received an email apologising two fold, firstly for the method of communication, and secondly that I was not the man for the job!
I have to admit, I was, and deep down still am upset about that, I thought I’d be good at the job, and to be fair, I believe I am correct in that thinking. They felt, and I honour and agree with that feeling that God was not calling me to their church, partly due to inexperience working with their kind of kids, and they felt I would struggle to drive forward their vision for the youth work in their parish.
Oh well! I believe God has something better for me in store, although from here I don’t know what that is. I do know that I’m glad to be staying at Central for the foreseeable future, and continuing to live with my community – my extended family.
How does this relate to Genesis 45? How have I managed to relate my story to that of Joseph and his brothers?
First off, I’d like to make my standard opening mentioning how long it has been since my last blog… 3 weeks is actually a lot better than it has been, so I guess I have that going for me now.
I guess today’s (perhaps tonight’s is more applicable) blog is entirely (hyperbole) inspired by a friend who messaged me after my last facebook post to tell me I was
“a brilliant witness here on Facebook, I wish I had half your courage! “
I have to admit hearing that felt pretty good. Since the person who made it has no exposure to my life apart from facebook these days I have to say it is a nice compliment.
It got me thinking. Maybe I’m a great witness on Facebook, maybe I’m even an ok witness in the real world as well.
Perhaps, these two worlds don’t need to be held at arms reach. Perhaps the world (like, all 30 odd people who will eventually stumble across this) is ready for some real honest to God (literally) honesty.
I am by nature of being a human, a sinner – which simply means I’M NOT PERFECT. There, I said it once, don’t make me say it again, I don’t know if my ego can handle such self-centered humility. (Isn’t it interesting how in Christian circles admitting that you aren’t perfect nearly defeats the purpose – “I’m such a good Christian I know I’m not a good Christian” – how meta is that!?) (more…)
It’s been a long time since I last blogged.
That seems to be a very common opening for my blogs! I wish it wasn’t, yet at the same time I struggle with motivating myself to write. I have half formed thoughts, and think ooh that would be a great subject to blog on. That way I can bounce my thoughts off the screen of my laptop until I have something vaguely coherent, and perhaps almost conclusive, then I can publish it and people will read it.
That for me, is what my blog is supposed (I think) to be about, a place for me when I can bounce my ideas around outside of my head. I’m a very internalised processor, which means when I think about things I tend not to do much discussing until I have a pretty good grasp on the idea/plan. It is only infrequently I’ll speak up about a plan or an idea and say everything that I could about it, it tends to be I open on the topic, talk/explain what I think and then let people draw their on conclusions from what is right for me. That’s why I used to (and still do) enjoy blogging! I get to talk for just as long as I want to, go back and rephrase things I’m not comfortable with until it’s neater.
At the moment I’ve reached a phase in life where I’m struggling with my identity. That’s not to say I’ve forgotten my name (Andrew James Goudie) but rather that I seem to be losing something that I’ve had through my whole childhood. I feel like I’ve lost an instinctive grasp on who and what I am.
I woke up at about 2 this morning, after falling asleep well before 9, and couldn’t get back to sleep, so picked up the book I’ve just started reading. It’s about discipleship and identity (so far). The part of the book talks about how we have to set Jesus at the focus of our lives, and make a stand for Him. However, making that stand is wrapped up in who you are! The writer talks about growing Jesus inside of yourself, cultivating a lifestyle that looks like Jesus. (more…)
Well, I’m back safe and sound from another week at camp! The last two weeks or so have featured a lot of stress – I had my resits to deal with, then I was off to camp with a little bit less time to prepare then I would have liked, but realistically you can never prepare too much for an SU camp!
Now that I’m back I’m resolved to take my bible study much more seriously, both privately and online here, with my blog. Hopefully this time I’ll manage to stick at it longer than a few weeks, and maybe even finish Genesis by Christmas and find something new (and shorter) to captivate my online musings.
The title at the top of that link marks Chapter 44 as “Joseph’s silver cup, but in the English Standard Version (accessible through Biblegateway.com, or by changing the letters NLT to ESV at the end of the link above) it is given the title of “Joseph tests his brothers”.
I really like that as an overview for the whole passage, in context from Genesis 43 (see https://lifeisnotamystery.wordpress.com/2013/07/22/joseph-gets-his-act-together-genesis-43-and-a-springsummer-update/) we know that Joesph is no longer acting maliciously towards his brothers. He has given up trying to punish them, and now he is testing the to see if they have truly changed their ways or not.
Joseph wants to look after his full brother Benjamin, and make sure that Benjamin won’t get mistreated in the same that he (Joseph) did. In order to do so (more…)
It’s been so long since I last blogged about Genesis I almost forgot that there are only 50 chapters (only?!) in this opening book of the Bible, as I cast my memory back nearly two years ago when I first began the series I begin to wonder if I had any idea as to what I was doing.
Recollecting some of my actions from back then I can tell you that I surely didn’t know what I was embarking on ( I didn’t even count the chapters before I began) and that even now, embarking on my third decade of existence I still have no clue what I’m doing.
But since it has been so long since I blogged about anything a quick recap on my spring and summer – I completely dropped the ball on my exams, I was too apathetic, too self centered to work as hard as I needed and I failed two modules, if God blesses me I will hopefully manage to work hard enough to pass my exam later this week, and successfully submit passing coursework before I leave for LM5 at the end of the week.